Finally!

I can not explain the feeling, the calmness and depth of satisfaction is indescribable.

Most of us need coordinate system to feel safe, to have a sense of direction. Normally, we get our coordinate system from 'people' around us, or sometimes from those in the past. For example, an artist may compare himself with other figures in present or past, or may get feedback through his or her audience.

For few seconds I had a very strange sense of satisfaction, in a completely floating state of mind, I had such a deep appreciation of myself and I felt so proud of myself, of the whole path I traveled from day 1 till that moment, few minutes ago. It felt like putting your feed on the solid ground after going through a storm. The irony is that I felt it when I was totally floating in a state of daydreaming.

I felt it once more before, a few minutes after I pass the finish line of Houston Marathon. It was the feeling of reaching the destination; it was like the calmness of death. That is it! You are done! No more worries, and most importantly, you have made it, you went through, and who cares about others.

Stop!

I have to stop the world, push the pause, and come out of my skin, and look at the world, and find myself, see the path I have come, and see where I'm heading. See people and things around me. Just in a snapshot of my life, and see if I am happy of who I am, if I am heading where I want to be, and I am doing what I want to do.

There are defining moments in one's life. You have to pick, you have to take side, you have to 'be' something. You have to contribute to something beyond you, a glimpse of eternity.